stoptober! | update #6

Hello, sorry I've been AWOL for a while!

Well here is a little update & I'm GOIG to stop calling it 'stoptober' as that, I fact has finished. And did I complete it? HELL YES! I completed the challenge and state smoke free for 28 days and I'm so proud of that!

I am currently on day 38, not on Champix and doing well. 9 days ago whilst I was on a mini break to Kinston, I kept forgetting to take my Champix tablets so I just decided to stop. It was probably a silly thing to do as I have noticed a difference, my cravings are slightly stronger but I was just sick to death of feeling nauseous and tired ALLLL the time. The tiredness was crazy. But I've since had a stop smokin appointment with Georgie and she says there is nothing wrong with stopping Champix, just to keep going doing so well!

So all is well. I am still a NON-SMOKER, and happy about it!

Cornish Beauty.

stoptober! #4

I can't quite believe it-10 days! Or 240 hours or 14,400 minutes! I haven't smoked or this long and I am now allowing a bit of pride to sneak in.

I've gotten over my tantrum about the e-cigarette and have stopped using it. It's been about 34 hours without it which is good so I can definitely be without it. Today is the last day of my 1st pack of Champix-I start week 2-4 tomorrow which is two weeks solid of 1mg twice daily.

I have to admit, I am finding this so much easier than I imagined! I mean, it's not EASY as such, there are so many times when I could murder someone for just one cigarette but then I remember how gross I will feel, how awful it will taste and how disappointed I will be. Also, the most important thing to do is take a few deep breaths and think about all the reasons you have stopped smoking in the first place.

If anyone is actually ready this who smokes and really want to stop, then you CAN do it. I was a heavy smoker, loved smoking and have zero willpower. And I'm on day 10!

YOU CAN DO IT!!!

Cornish Beauty.

PS-can you believe I've saved £60 so far? It's crazy. I'm in desperate new of a pair of winter boots and now won't feel bad about buying them!

stoptober #3 | pissed right off.

So, I've just come back from my follow-up stop smoking appointment and I feel like a complete let down!!!

I'm so upset and I feel like a cheat! Haha basically, I went in there like a little ray of sunshine, all happy and proud, only to be told that basically I'm cheating as I've been using an e-cigarette alongside Champix. So, technically, I'm still smoking (sort of). The nurse did not tell me this but this is how I felt and I could see in her eyes that I wasn't doing as well as I though I was. So here was me thinking I've given up smoking for a WHOLE WEEK when in actual fact, I haven't. I mean, don't get me wrong, smoking the e-cigarette is a million times better than an actual cigarette BUT I'm still getting nicotine so I'm not fighting the urge to smoke if you know what I mean. So I feel completely downhearted today. And on top of feeling poorly & other stresses going on today; this was certainly not the news I was hoping for :(

BUT, I'm not going to quit quitting. It's day 10 of Champix, I've got another prescription to start next week (£7.65 for a frigging prescription-Christ!) and I've decided on an e-cigarette quit date: 19th October. So I've got a week left with my baby. Oh well, I though it was too easy to be true! What a DIVVY.

I'm going back to bed now in fear that if I do anything or go anywhere this day will just get worse and worse and push me to lighting up a fag.
This is me......goodnight!

Cornish Beauty.