stoptober! #5

So, today marks the three week stage of my mission to give up and am I still smoke free? HELL YESSSSSS! (The picture shows 20 days but by this it means I've completed 20 days, therefore I'm now on day 21!)

I can't quite believe it-quite incredible but I am starting to feel a bit 'bummed' the excitement of giving up has left me and because I know for a face I am eating more due to quitting, I'm feeling pretty depressed! All the way along I said to myself I wouldn't stress out if I out on a little bit of weight as its worth it and I can loose it once I've conquered giving up (not that I can really afford to out on any weight at all!) but now I'm here and all I want to do is eat....it sucks. Also, I've never been so tired in my while life! I'm completely exhausted all the time even though I'm getting plenty of sleep. So all-in-all not great, but I have to keep remembering that I've gone three weeks without a cigarette.

I'm still on Champix, although for the past few nights I've been forgetting to take my second tablet-a good sign? And I've got my 3rd stop smoking appointment this evening so will let you know how that goes, not sure if I will get another prescription or not-ill see what Georgie says! It has also been 12 days since I've used the e-cigarette which I'm really pleased with!

If anyone else has any stories about giving up smoking please share I'd love to hear them and gain some extra inspiration and tips!

Cornish Beauty.

stoptober #3 | pissed right off.

So, I've just come back from my follow-up stop smoking appointment and I feel like a complete let down!!!

I'm so upset and I feel like a cheat! Haha basically, I went in there like a little ray of sunshine, all happy and proud, only to be told that basically I'm cheating as I've been using an e-cigarette alongside Champix. So, technically, I'm still smoking (sort of). The nurse did not tell me this but this is how I felt and I could see in her eyes that I wasn't doing as well as I though I was. So here was me thinking I've given up smoking for a WHOLE WEEK when in actual fact, I haven't. I mean, don't get me wrong, smoking the e-cigarette is a million times better than an actual cigarette BUT I'm still getting nicotine so I'm not fighting the urge to smoke if you know what I mean. So I feel completely downhearted today. And on top of feeling poorly & other stresses going on today; this was certainly not the news I was hoping for :(

BUT, I'm not going to quit quitting. It's day 10 of Champix, I've got another prescription to start next week (£7.65 for a frigging prescription-Christ!) and I've decided on an e-cigarette quit date: 19th October. So I've got a week left with my baby. Oh well, I though it was too easy to be true! What a DIVVY.

I'm going back to bed now in fear that if I do anything or go anywhere this day will just get worse and worse and push me to lighting up a fag.
This is me......goodnight!

Cornish Beauty.